Broken.

Our heart have just broken into pieces.
I only want you to know that, I have loved you in these years and I never regret it.
If someday... I had to leave, I'm never really leaving because, I'll stay here. I'm here in your heart.
Please pick up the donald duck doll I bought for you. And just pretend that it's me, because whatever happens, my heart will always belongs to you.
Take care,
I love you with all my heart.

Trust.

"Bel, kamu jaga diri disana. Cari temen yang baik."

"Iya. Kamu banyak mata mata loh buat aku! Disana kan banyak anak 42."

"Haha, mata mata? Aku ga butuh."

"Kenapa emang?"

"Buat apa? Aku percaya sama kamu."

"..."

"Aku percaya kamu bakal setia, kita bakal baik baik aja. Aku sayang sama kamu 100%."

"That's sweet -hugs-"

"I love you bel"

"I love you too"

Sedih ya? Bagi gue iya. Kerasa banget loh, dulu yang biasanya tiap hari ketemu, tiap hari ada yang jagain, skrg... 
Sekarang ketemu bentar aja bersyukur, setiap detik yang kita lewatin saat ketemu, berharga. Banget.
Segini belum sibuk sama kuliah masing masing, dan masih dalam jarak yang relatif deket. (Cibubur - bogor)
Tapi gimana nanti... I'm gonna miss him so much.

By, I love you. I love you. 
Sekarang hubungan kita lagi diuji dulu yah. Sekarang kita cari ilmu di dua kota yang berbeda, dua lingkungan yang berbeda. Gapai cita cita masing masing, sukses, dan kita bisa nikmatin hasil manisnya sama sama.
Aku tau kita bisa, aku tau kita kuat. 
I won't give up on us. God knows we worth it....
We can through this together.

Sincerely, 
Lissy. (Your Belu)

Blackbird

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Black bird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
all your life
you were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Pesimistic Girl.

Halo halo! Baru beredar lagi nih di dunia blogspot dan kaget sama semua featurenya yang baru dan kece.
Bingung juga semua udah berubah gini tampilannya... 
Oke jadi, biasa mau numpahin unek unek aja.
Btw.
Gue itu orangnya pesimis banget. Pesimistic deh pokoknya.
Beda sama kebanyakan temen temen gue yang PD dan cuek soal apa yang pengen mereka capai.
Kebanyakan temen gue tuh bisa yakin kalo mereka bakal ngeraih apa yg mereka mau.
Gue? Hm.
Hal pertama yang akan gue bilang adalah : "Pasti gak bisa deh..."
Kalo gue bisa gue bakal singkirin nih rasa pesimis dan fikiran negatif yg selalu sliweran di otak gue.
Sampe sekarang pun gue masih blm nemuin caranya gimana.
Sifat pesimis tuh kayak tembok besar yang menghambat lo untuk mencapai suatu tujuan.
Karena itu bukan sekedar omongan, tapi fikiran. SUGESTI. Hal yang paling kuat.
Dengan gue bersugesti kalo gue "gak bisa" inilah yang lambat laun juga menghambat usaha gue. Karena gue udah nyerah duluan. 
Si Pesimis inilah yang bikin usaha gue nggak maksimal. Ngerasa gak bisa, gak mampu.
Ada kalanya disaat Dia bener bener hilang, poof gak tau kemana, dan tiba tiba pun gue semangat, optimis pasti bisa dan berusaha lebih keras. Tapi, ya inilah.
My weakness. It never leaves me, like it never TOTALLY POOFED.
It came back, here inside my heads. Pikiran pikiran negatif mulai muncul, sliweran kayak angka-angka di film matrix. "Gak bisa..." "Gak usah mimpi..." "Liat kenyataannya..."
HHH.
I really, wanted to get rid of it but I still can't figure it out.


Go away, Pesimistic thoughts.
Just.
Poof.

No longer :-)

Have you guys ever feel like being forgotten? Being underestimated by your own friend?
At first I was keep quiet, pretending like nothing else is happen. But deep inside my heart, it disappointed me. It hurted me. It's getting worse everyday. Now it's like a time-bomb. Maybe it has explode right now, I don't really know. All I know is I'm sick of being like this. Like you-can-do-anything-to-me without being scared of the things you've done could possibly hurt my feelings.

Now I don't care anymore about you. I'll act like I want to. I'll never admit your existence around me.
I'll recognize you as no longer my "friend" HAH.
End of story :-)

f*ck you! by Diela Maharani

About me

1. I am addicted to your love.
2. I am crazy about you.
3. I can't stop thinking about you.
4. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings.
5. I don't want to wake up from this wonderful dream with you.
6. I feel safe when I am with you.
7. I love talking to you.
8. I love the way you make me laugh.
9. I thank God for the day He brought you into my life.
10. I want to spend my day with you.
11. I will give anything to be with you.
12. I will rather be broke than trade your love for a million dollars.
13. I will travel a thousand miles to be with you.
14. Loving you feels like heaven.
15. Loving you has made my life sweeter.
16. Loving you has made my life so full of joy and happiness.
17. Nobody will love me the way you love me.
18. Nothing will ever stop me from loving you.

But these words are not enough to express how much I love you, My Baby Belle.

-Your Fayo 

Random thoughts

Hhhh sebenernya banyak banget unek unek yang mau gue keluarin disini. Akhir akhir ini suka bingung deh sama orang orang di sekitar gue. Tau kenapa? Karena banyak yang palsu, fake. Muna. Maaf aja tapi emang gitu kenyataannya. Ya gak memungkiri juga kalo gue kadang2 emang suka gitu. Suka gosipin orang kalo lagi ngumpul sama temen temen. Ga usah muna, kalian juga suka kan kayak gitu? Ya gitu deh. Tapi kenapa ya manusia harus seperti itu, padahal sesama yaaa sesama temen lah. Yang parah tuh yaaa ada orang yang depan gue maniiiis banget beh udah kaya apa tau baiknya, tp di belakang gue, gue tau banget sebenernya dia suka ngomongin gue sama temen2nya. Nah yang kayak gitu2 deh yang bikin gue enek. Ya gue tau sih mungkin kita emang ga harus nunjukkin ketidak-sukaan kita terang2an, tapi plis deh ga usah sok baik juga, biasa aja.


Ada lagi, misalnya sahabat lo nih, baiiiik banget kemarennya tapi tiba2 bsknya suka beda gitu, kayak orang marah, gue sendiri bingung gue salah apa sampe kayaknya kok gue dijutekin setengah mati. Terus giliran dia butuh bantuan lo selalu bantu sebisa lo dan giliran lo minta tolong kayaknya itu udah hal terberat yang harus dia lakuin. Dan lo selalu di underestimate sama dia, di rendahin, bla bla bla. Trus dia seakan akan gak rela kalo lo yang lagi 'diatas' dan dia dibawah kayak orang ngambek dan marah. Kesel gak? Tapi yaudahlah orang orang kaya gt  emang harus dimaklumin. Toh masih banyak orang2 yang baik sm gue. Lumayan lah buat ngelatih mental. Makasih loh ya :>


Hmmm mau cerita lagi... Oh iya. Di satu sisi gue seneng banget. Kenapa? Gue punya pacar baik banget. Jujur aja. Dia the best I ever had. Ini conv yang bikin gue... hhh klepek klepek =)


Gue  : "Kamu baik banget siiih?"
Faro : "Ah engga ah"
Gue  : "Iya tau, kamu baik banget"
Faro : "Tau ga kenapa aku gini?"
Gue  : "Kenapa?"
Faro : "Ya.. karena kamu juga baik kayak gini, kamu baik banget ke aku"


................MELEH GAKSIIIIHHHHH????? Faroooo baik banget kamu :)) gini nih salah satu orang yang bikin kejenuhan gue ilang, kemuakan gue sama kemunafikan orang2 sekitar ilang, malah bikin lebih sabar ya cuma dia. :)) 


Udah ya kayaknya sampe sini aja. Nanti kalo lagi mood gue cerita2 lagi oke? Ciao :)

The Notebook

I just watched The Notebook for the first time, and it makes me cry like a babyyyyyyy :''''(

Noah: I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.

Young Allie: [lying in the middle of the street] What happens if a car comes? 

Young Noah: We die.  

Young Allie: Now, say you're a bird.
Young Noah: If you're a bird, I'm a bird. 

Young Noah: We can just finish out the summer and see what happens then.
Young Allie: Please don't do this, you don't mean it. Oh why wait until the summer ends? Why don't you do it right now?
[pushes Noah against car]
Young Allie: Huh? C'mon. Do it! Do it!
[repeatedly pushes Noah, starts hitting Noah, Noah starts hitting himself]
Young Allie: You know what? I'm gonna do it! It's over. Okay? it's over.
Young Noah: [opens his arms for a hug] Come here.
Young Allie: Don't touch me! I hate you! I hate you!
Young Noah: OK, I'm going.
Young Allie: Why don't you just go then?
[pushes Noah in the car]
Young Allie: Get out! Leave!
[kicks Noah's car]
Young Allie: Go!... No, no, just wait a minute, we're not really breaking up are we? Come on. This is just a fight we're having and tomorrow will be like it never happend right?
[Noah drives away] 

Young Noah: My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Noah 

Young Allie: Why didn't you write me? Why? It wasn't over for me, I waited for you for seven years. But now it's too late.
Young Noah: I wrote you 365 letters. I wrote you everyday for a year.
Young Allie: You wrote me?
Young Noah: Yes... it wasn't over, it still isn't over 

Noah: That's my sweetheart in there. Wherever she is, that's where my home is. 

Allie: Do you think our love can make miracles?

Noah: I do. 

Allie: Do you think our love, can take us away together?

Noah: I think our love can do anything we want it to. 

Allie: I love you. 

Noah: I love you, Allie. 

Allie: Good night. 

Noah: Good night. I’ll be seeing you. 

I wish I could have that love story... I wish we could be together. Until the very end... with you.

My bestsss

Halo semua :D
Jadi kemaren, kita semua (piggaro) bukber gidu hihihi langsung aja ya foto-fotonya =D

Thankies <3 you guys are so very special to me.

Love ya! xx

Lissy

What the guys thought

Girls says :

Then the boys says : 

We boys don’t get butterflies, we get fireworks. We don’t have you on our mind 24/7, but we do have you on our hearts. Often, yes we wait for you to go online, sometimes simply even just being online makes our heart skip a beat, even if we don’t talk. Whenever you talk to us, our face forms that half-smile; it means we are happy but are trying our hardest to not show it, and fail at hiding it. We do miss you all the time; granted, we’d spend all our time with you if possible. We don’t think of the smallest things you say, we think of every word you say, panicking at every single word, trying to define what it really means, to read between the lines. But wait there’s more.

 We would love you in a million ways. And once we start loving you there is no going back for us. No matter how hard we try we will always love a girl that has touched us. Us boys when in love will think of that girl first thing in the morning, and think of that girl last before we sleep at night. Whenever we see a couple, our thoughts immediately jump to that girl, and imagine that the couple was us. Every single detail about her is loved; the way she walks, talks, speaks. The sound of her voice. Her laughter. The sparkle in her eyes. Her shy smile. The way she dresses. That cute face she makes when she’s asleep. And the way she says our name that our hearts just explode with mirth, a simple act that no-one else can replicate.

A boy in love with a girl is no simple thing, though ladies stereotype us guys as simple. A man in love is not simple. No. He will be unpredictable. He will be persistent, stubborn, and given the circumstances, if it means carrying you from one side of the world to the other to win your heart, a man in love would. He will be a martyr, giving his all and asking for almost none. 

He will show you how to appreciate the beauty of the world in a thousand ways, and then he will tell you how much he appreciates your beauty in a million ways. 

A man in love is no simple thing.

 He did. He really did. My boyfriend is soooo one of a kind. I love him. So much.

Best regards,

Lissy. x

XII IPA 4

Yep, that's my new class in the 12th grade. And my chairmate is... Shinta! Chairmate di kelas 10, ketemu lagi di kelas 12. Semoga bisa saling membantu yaaa :D sebenernya gw ga ngerasa kalo kelas gue ini gimana gimana sih, malah gue lebih sreg sama yang skrg drpd sama kelas 11 kemaren. Anak anaknya jg sebagian ada yang udah gue kenal, yaaa walaupun ngga deket tapi seenggaknya kenal lah yaaa... soal deketnya kan seiring waktu aja. cailaaaaah.

Semoga nih semoga aja sama yang ini bisa kompak, saling bantu bantu pas ada ulangan ulangan, try out, bahkan pas UN. Semoga kelasnya solid! Ngga ngelompok2 dan asik asik selalu lah ya! 

Best Regards, 

Lissy

Joseph Gordon Levitt

Joseph Leonard Gordon-Levitt (born February 17, 1981)

Who didn't adore him?!!! God, he's so adorable. He's a type of a classy boy but I kinda love it. I adore you much Mr. Levitt!

Ours♥

Helloo :) this time I just wanna tell about me and my everything. Sebenernya ini diminta sama si doi buat gue nulis di blog-nya haha tp jujur dari pertama kali gue baca blog dia langsung ngebayang pengen banget bisa nulis sesuatu buat dia :) Gue mau cerita tentang hubungan gue sama dia. Dari pertama kali gue ketemu sama dia, jujur gue ngerasa beda. Bukan karna gue pertama kali liat dia, tp waktu itu gue langsung ngerasa... She's meant to be with me. Gue pertama kali ketemu sama dia di sekolah, waktu itu lagi ada acara buat kelas X nya. Dan itu di ruang avi, gue inget banget jadi kita duduk seberangan gitu. Waktu itu acaranya lagi istirahat dan gue tetep di dalem avi lagi sibuk nyontek pr mtk haha begitu juga sama dia, dia tetep di dalem sama temen2nya. Jujur, kayak ada yang nyuruh gue untuk ngeliat ke depan dan pas banget dia juga ngeliat gue, secara ga langsung kita liat2an disitu (deg degan coy hahaha) Tp itu cuma sebentar dan besok2nya gue ga ngeliat dia lagi. Sampe satu saat temen gue bilang ada yg mau kenalan dan gue penasaran banget siapa orangnya. Dan gue kaget banget waktu tau orang itu ternyata dia :) emang bener bener ditakdirkan untuk bersama hahaha aamiiin :p dan akhirnya gue kenalan sama dia di dalem kelasnya. 

Ada juga waktu sekolah lagi ada acara latgab dan diklat. Disitu gue bener bener seneng banget bisa lebih lama ketemunya, tp dari pertama gue ketemu sama dia sampe sekarang pun kalo mau ketemu selalu deg degan haha. Mulai dari situ setiap gue ketemu dia, gue selalu nyapa dia dan selalu nyariin dia. Akhirnya gue mulai smsan sama dia dan itu berlangsung kira-kira 1 bulan. And finally... On December 16th di tangga sebelah ruang lab. fisika, jam setengah 12, gue menyatakan cinta hahaha dan gue ga nyangka banget akhirnya gue sama sama dia. Gue seneng banget, kaget, ga nyangka, ah pokoknya campur aduk disitu. 

Kita ganti topik lagi ya... hehe. Gue mau cerita tentang waktu gue anniv sama dia. Anniv yang pertama, itu paling sedih huhu gue ninggalin dia pergi sama keluarga. Dan komunikasi susah banget, akhirnya gue bisa ngabarin dia waktu tanggal 17nya dan itu cuma sekali lewat message fb doang. Itu yg paling sedih :( Anniv yg kedua, gue sama dia dan sama temen2 kelas gue pergi ke dufan. Kita seneng2 sama sama disana, dan akhirnya gue ngasih dia cincin yg cantik banget. Gue suka banget liat dia pake itu, anggun banget kamu bel :) Anniv yang ketiga, gue telfon2an sama dia dan itu telfonan pertama yg paling lama. Yang keempat, hari itu hari sekolah biasa. Gue ketemu dia di sekolah tp ga seperti yg diinginkan, gue malah punya masalah sama dia di hari itu. Yang kelima, gue ke rumah dia dan gue kasih dia bunga mawar merah, jumlahnya 15. 14 bunga asli dan 1 palsu. Dan ada beberapa kata-kata yg gue bilang ke dia :) Yang keenam, itu juga hari sekolah biasa tp gue bawain dia bunga. Dan itu bunga edelweiss, seperti biasa gue punya kata-kata buat dia. Yang ketujuh, gue juga ketemu di sekolah dan kita cuma ngobrol2, ketawa2 seperti biasa walaupun cuma kayak gitu selama itu gue tetep sama dia, gue seneng banget. Yang kedelapan, gua juga ketemu dia di sekolah dan hari itu lagi bulan puasa. Gue kasih dia boneka beruang yg namanya "Baby Kuma". Yang ke sembilan, hari itu dia pergi sama keluarganya dan gue malah bikin masalah disitu, maaf ya beeel :( Yang ke sepuluh, gue sama dia sama temen2 juga jalan bareng. Kita ke plangi, kita nonton disana, makan dan segala macem. Yang ke sebelas, maaf cantiiik aku agak agak lupa yg ini :( aku ingetnya kita ga kemana mana dan kita kalo ga salah ketemu disekolah. Terus yg ke dua belas, gue dateng ke rumahnya dan gue kasih dia bunga mawar merah dan gue juga nyiapin kalung buat dia :) Yang ke tiga belas,  hari itu gue ada acara sama temen2 smp dan gue pergi ke nikahan guru gue dan kita ga ketemu deh :( Yang ke empat belas, lima belas sama enam belas, gue juga agak lupaa, maaf ya bel :( Yang ke tujuh belas, gue buatin sesuatu buat dia. Gue kumpulinbeberapa foto dan gue tempel di kertas karton gede dan gue kasih dia di rumahnya. Dan yang ke delapan belas, gue ketemu dia di sekolah dan gue kasih dia bunga mawar putih. Dan malemnya gue kirim voicenote ke dia. 

Bel, aku seneng banget bisa selama ini sama sama kamu, semua momen yg kita lewatin berdua itu momen terbaik buat aku. Dari awal rasa aku buat kamu ga pernah berubah sedikit pun. Aku selalu ngerasa baru pacaran sama kamu, selalu kangen, selalu deg degan setiap mau ketemu kamu, dan selalu sayang sama kamu. I'm so proud of you and... I couldn't tell you how much I love you and how much you mean to me. I never felt like this before, you're the one who make my heart feel this love and always you.

I love you, beautiful

- Your choco sugar pie

My 17th Birthday

surprise!!! my boyfriend brings the cake and my bestfriends are there too

here's the birthday cake from my friends and my boyfriend, the cream  shaped like a sun :D

me and my boyfriend<3

me and my girls!!!<3<3

A birthday present from my boyfriend!! thank u very much my baby pie<3

Then, me and my family heading home while my friends stay at school cs they can't come to my house for some reason :( so my boyfriend tells me that he'll come to my house to accompany me, yay! :D and we took some picture of course...

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What a silly pose -_- hahaha but then, my family have a surprise too!

Me, mom&dad, and daffa.

The second birthday cake! ps: my fav, tiramisu :9

The present from my mom and dad

a birthday card from mom and dad... lovely!

last but not least.. my silly boyfriend! haha mwah :*

I just wanna say thank u so much for the birthday wishes, for the cake, for the presents, and for the surprise.
And thank God, I'm seventeen! :D

Best Regards,

Lissy.

Something is missing

Something is missing... He (used to be)  a part of me.

Quelqu'un M'a Dit by Carla Bruni

I heard this song in 500 days of summer, and at first time I heard it, I don't know what the title is but now, I figured it out!! :D The title is "Quelqu'un M'a Dit" by Carla Bruni. Such a nice song, and easy listening but it's a french song, but I think that what made the song is nice and sweet with a bit of mellow tune of the acoustic guitar. As may I say, soooo french! Here's the lyric and the translations :


In french : 
Quelqu’un M’a Dit


On me dit que nos vies ne valent pas grand-chose
Elles passent en un instant comme fanent les roses

On me dit que le temps qui glisse est un salaud
Que de nos chagrins il s'en fait des manteaux
Pourtant quelqu'un m'a dit...

(refrain)
Que tu m'aimais encore
C'est quelqu'un qui m'a dit que tu m'aimais encore
Serait-ce possible alors ?

On me dit que le destin se moque bien de nous
Qu'il ne nous donne rien et qu'il nous promet tout
Paraît que le bonheur est à portée de main
Alors on tend la main et on se retrouve fou
Pourtant quelqu'un m'a dit...

(refrain)

Mais qui est-ce qui m'a dit que toujours tu m'aimais ?
Je ne me souviens plus, c'était tard dans la nuit
J'entends encore la voix, mais je ne vois plus les traits
"Il vous aime, c'est secret, lui dites pas que je vous l'ai dit"
Tu vois, quelqu'un m'a dit...

Que tu m'aimais encore, me l'a-t-on vraiment dit...
Que tu m'aimais encore, serait-ce possible alors ?

In English:

Quelqu'un m'a dit

They tell me that our lives aren't worth anything,
they pass in an instant like the roses fade.
They tell me that the time that slips away is a bastard
that makes coats out of our sorrows.
However someone told me...

Refrain
that you still love me.
There's someone who told me
that you still love me.
Is that possible?

They tell me that destiny makes fun of us,
that it gives us nothing and that it promises everything.
It seems happiness is at hand,
so we tend the hand and we find ourselves crazy.
However someone told me...

Refrain

But who is it that told me you still love me?
I don't remember anymore it was late in the night.
I still hear the voice,
but I no longer see the features.
"He loves you, it's secret, don't tell him that I told you"
You see someone told me...

That you still love me, they really told me that...

That you still love me, is that possible?

this song is recommended! a very good song :)

I drew some picture today!!!

I sketch it myself :D I know the pics looks weird and the light is so weak, I took the picture with my mum's blackberry (since my blackberry was...dead) Hope you like it! :D

I can't smile without you♥

Today.. I made him a video♥ it filled with our pictures & memories of all this years. I'm so glad I made it and it's a very sweeet video. Everytime I watch it, I feel like.. damn! this just too sweet I'm gonna cry. Haha but that's true :) He already watched it too and he say he loves it :) I'm so glad. I was thinking that I wanna show him the video on our anniversary day on June 16. but I think that faster is better so... yeah I'm just glad I made it :) 


Here's the video: 

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1914254867817&comments

Sincerely,

Lover who is crazily in love. x

Our 17th month anniversary

Helloooo :3 so yesterday was... May 16! as you guys know, it was our 17th month anniversary <3
he did come to my house and bring me this lovely little gift ♡ check this out :

isn't it lovelyyy????? :3 thanks for yesterday  baby, it was one wonderful day. me never stop loving ya <3